Soon We'll be 5

It seems hardly believable to me. After so many years and heartbreak and hoping, we are having another baby this summer. Early August, end of July, whenever it is best for her. We are cautiously excited about this change for our family but full of gratitude. I went through the IVF process in Fall of 2013 and it didn't work. It took me a while to recover emotionally from the disappointment. Scott and I decided we could handle the process one more time--to prove to our Heavenly Father we would do everything in our power to add to our family and trust Him with the rest. I started the shots and medications in October 2014 and we found out we were pregnant right after Thanksgiving Day. I was relieved and scared and thankful all wrapped up together. My first trimester got really difficult around week 6 and it didn't let up until around week 19. I tried really hard to not complain but to feel gratitude with each wave of sickness. The right hormones were working and it meant the baby was developing properly. We did have two embryos, both started to grow. But by week 8 one didn't make it. Although twins would have been a crazy adventure, we prayed with gratitude for one healthy baby. Around week 18 we found out we are having a girl. Watson is warming up to the idea quickly (he was convinced he only wanted another brother) and Chandler won't believe it until he sees her. Here I am now, resting and preparing for this new baby. It's a process, one I'm grateful to go through one last time. I have felt closer to my Heavenly Father through this. The pain and struggle of it all has brought me to my knees often. I'm grateful for prayer and the chance to speak to Him-- my hearts desires. He listens. He is always there. No matter the outcome or my response to it He always loves me. There is nothing greater than this.